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Name: Margaret, aka "MzSerena"
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Bio: Some contents may not be suitable to the faint of heart, or those who can't handle people who have an opinion and their own mind. Who I am is who I've always been, an open minded, married BBW, bi-sexual who does not talk about religion or politics. I don't care who our president is, he still deserves our respect, whether we like him or not. I am blunt and honest to a fault and I'm outright offensive sometimes. If you think that you want to get to know me, read on and enjoy
So much for the plans I had for our income tax refund. I think my car is plotting against me. I was hoping to be able to get a few things that I have been waiting to buy.
There goes my Nintendo Wii or iPod Touch. I’m sad and irritated.
Tonight, on the way home, the windshield wipers decided to take a dive again. I’m seriously NOT pleased. The damn thing was just fixed at the beginning of January.
Wtf, car? I don’t get it.
[12:58] Name Removed: but as an american…i hate this country
[12:59] Me: So leave.
[12:59] Me: Canada is nice, they say.
[12:59] Name Removed: yeah you know what give me the money to move an i will
[13:00] Name Removed: which includes getting me a new job a place to live and the right to live in a country other than this one
[13:02] Name Removed: now beyound that …. i will continue to bitch about america if i want… cause im a legal resident born here i didn’t ask to be here so its my god given right to bitch…
[13:03] Me: And it’s my god given right to tell you to stfu and do something about it if you hate it so much.
I don’t get it, really. I don’t care for the government, don’t agree with the politic, but I wouldn’t really want to live anywhere else but here.
Ow. My neck, my back, my wrists, my ankles. All sound like rice krispies every day when I wake up. I hate it, especially since it’s highly likely that I can develop rheumatoid arthritis. Heck, I could already have it, or worse. My mother has fibroblasts, so it’s definitely that is on my mind a lot.
My shoulder hurts like mad this morning. I dunno why. I haven’t done anything for it to be sore. It just is. I wish I could get Connie to listen to me and stop telling me to lose weight. I know I need to lose weight, but guess what? I’ve not had all these problems all my life. Sure I’ve been overweight all my life, but I used to be able to walk all over town, go to the mall and walk for hours, walk the campus at Corning. Now? If I manage to get all the grocery shopping done without crying, I’m lucky.
One day, I’ll have health insurance and a doctor that cares… I hope.
I watch HGTv at night when I can’t sleep. I love to watch them when they do kitchen makeovers. They use beautiful glass tiles for back splashes. I would love to be able to do the same thing. But, I live in a mobile home and you can’t do that. The walls are too damn flimsy.
I want heated floor tiles for the bathroom and the kitchen. Omg can you imagine? Walk through the house and your feet be toasty warm all winter. I’d love to win the lottery, buy a house that needs some TCL and do everything that I’ve always imagined.
It’s January 25th. So what? It’s 2 days away from my birthday. By the time this posts, it’ll be the 26th. One day away. I told my husband that he really didn’t need to get me anything. We don’t have the money right now. I can get what I want when the taxes come in.
Saturday we went to see my sister, delivered her birthday gifts for her. Mom got her brand new cookware. She has never had new cookware and we decided to get it for her.
After I got home, I backed everything up and started the day long process of reformatting. It took me ALL day Sunday. 2 reformats. 100 Updates. It finally got finished this morning. It’s been behaving perfectly.
I don’t have a whole lot else.
This has been a weird week. It’s been mostly dead for me. Nothing work related. I don’t mind the week being slow, since next week is my birthday, then the first week of February starts 2 weeks of busy.
I should look into an auto insurance quote so that we can consider getting a new car. I can’t do anything until income taxes roll around.
We’ve got so much going on. I need to figure out whether I’m taking on the project I want to take on. I was hoping to be able to get ahold of the person(s) in charge, before-hand and see what the time commitment would be. If it’s a regular meeting thing or just ‘hey we need to do this on this date’ kind of thing.
I’d hope for both, frankly. The former is more conducive to being able to say “okay, I need you on day XYZ.” We’ll see, I guess. I have a couple weeks yet to decide.
Tomorrow is pay day, Saturday is my sister’s birthday. Mine is Wednesday. Whee? Meh.
A quickie before I go to bed.. I didn’t realize just how many specialized job search websites there are these days. I know there is Monster Jobs and stuff like that, but I didn’t realize that there was a site specific for Philadelphia job search.
It seems logical, I suppose, but it’s weird. I figured most people who want stuff specific to their city, they’d go with the classifieds of the papper. But then again, with the number of people who apply for jobs online, it does make sense.
Oh well. Guess I’ll sleep now.
So, since I’m looking into the option of finding a new doctor, I’ve been looking into other things, ways to help myself too. I want to be a healthier, happier me in 2010.
I’ve come to the conclusion that I need to consider a mood stabilizer. I need to lose more weight, but I also need to have something done about my back. Telling me to lose more weight won’t cut it. I know I need to, but that’s NOT why my back and legs go numb.
I’ve been thinking about reading some sybervision reviews to see what is out there. I still don’t think pills are the way to go. I don’t want more things to take. I want to be a pill free, healthy me. I know that will never happen and it sucks.
Meh, I think I’ll go to bed. I’m grumpy.
Sometimes I feel like life is all work and no play lately. I seem to have a lot of downtime, but I don’t have as much as I thought. I have busy weeks, then super quiet weeks. I thought this month would be an easy month, but it hasn’t been. I have a lot of irons in the fire.
I don’t remember what I was going to say, since I started this yesterday afternoon. I still have a Saturday Side Dish to get posted too.
..and miles to go before we sleep..
I need to figure out what to do about my doctor. I need to decide whether to continue on with Candor Family Care or move on with someone else. Frankly, I’m afraid that if I go to a new doctor, I have to start all over on the whole weight issue. If I wanted someone’s opinion, I’d go to www.loseweightfast.net and read that stuff. I know I’m overweight. I’m working on it. I have other problems too, deal with those.
I need to figure out what we’re doing about a home situation as well. One that I’m not really ready to put out in public. Sorry.
I need to figure out a lot of little things, and work on a few projects. I have a few new irons in the fire and I’m excited about them, but they’re going to be a lot of work.
I feel like curling up and vegetating for a day, but that’s not an option today.
Okay, I have a newfound love for Schwan’s Fire Baked Spinach and Mushroom Pizza. I have to admit that I’ve never had portabella mushrooms on anything and these were REALLY good. Typically, I don’t like frozen pizza, but I’ve been buying the different Schwan’s pizza’s lately. The best part? Frozen pizza’s are really not all that filling, at least not the ones I have gotten before. Typically for the 3 of us, we have to make 2 pizza’s. This time, we only needed just the one. I’m shocked that this was filling.
I’m trying hard to eat a little healthier. I need to try harder. I don’t want to take anything to lose weight. Even though green tea diet pills seem like a decent method. I don’t know though. I still have issues with the idea of taking a diet pill.
| Serving Size 1/4 pizza (143g) Servings Per Container 4 | ||
| Amount Per Serving | ||
| Calories from Fat 80 Calories 280 | ||
| % Daily Value * | ||
| Total Fat 9 g | 14 % | |
| Saturated Fat 3.5 g | 18 % | |
| Trans Fat 0 g | ||
| Cholesterol 15 mg | 5 % | |
| Sodium 650 mg | 27 % | |
| Total Carbohydrate 38 g | 13 % | |
| Dietary Fiber 3 g | 10 % | |
| Sugars 4 g | ||
| Protein 12 g | ||
| Vitamin A | 8 % | |
| Vitamin C | 2 % | |
| Calcium | 25 % | |
| Iron | 10 % | |
It’s so freaking cold it’s not even funny. It’s been in the teens lately. I do not like it in the slightest. I can’t wait for spring and I’ll miss winter as much as I’ll miss blackheads on nose! Typically I like the winter because I’m not sweating to death constantly.
I can’t wait for spring, seriously. Sadly, spring will bring on the onslaught of blackheads on my nose. Can’t have it all, can I? Didn’t think so.
Maybe a million years from now…
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I survived the OMGSWINEFLU crisis of the area. I survived that head cold that I started feeling.
But…
Rob gets a cold….
I don’t let him near me….
and I GET SICK. Fucker.
Please just be my allergies… PLEASE.. I feel like warmed over ass again and I have stuff to do this week.
I was hoping that 2010 would be a better year than 2009. So far, it’s starting out worse. One day I’d like to be able to post that I’m finally able to make new orleans hotel reservations so we can go on vacation. Yeah, I know, I’m dreaming again. It sucks, but life is not all that horrible. It will be better. It has to be better.
Right???
Alright, off to my books to hide from the world.
It’s finally Friday. It’s been a long week. Seriously long. Not quite sure why, outside of fighting with the cold weather. It’s been so cold that our water has been frozen on and off all week. Our kitchen was froze most of the week. It thawed yesterday, then froze up again today.
It’s been so cold that I can’t feel my feet when I go somewhere. I don’t own boots, I only have sneakers. I should invest in new shoes this spring, too. I was looking at those new mbt shoes. They’re kind of odd. I’m not sure I could walk wearing them. The rounded bottom with balance issues would probably be bad.
I really should break down and buy boots. I just hate the expense of something I might wear 3-4 times a year. Meh, maybe it’ll warm up next week. I hope at least.
I’m so freaking sleepy right now, and have the song “Goodnight, Sweetheart” Stuck in my head. I blame it on the show I was watching. Oh well, it’s a good song.
I’ve been randomly surfing, rather than doing anything I should do. Outside of starting my first book for my daunting task of beating multiple challenges. My first choice? Emily Bronte’s Wuthering Heights. I’ve never read it before, so don’t laugh.
I kind of screwed up and totally forgot about the deadline for the paper being Friday. Oops. I should do that as soon as I’m done. Thankfully, I’ve already taken the photos off the micro sd card and have them on my computer. I just have no idea what to write.
I’ve got a few things in my head, but deadline was 2 days ago and I need to get to it. Hope 2010 is treating you right.
Tomorrow is the end of 2009. What am I going to be doing? Celebrating with a glass of white grape juice mixed with mountain dew. Strange? Yes, but it’s really good. It’s like sparkling grape with a kick.
This has been a good year in a lot of ways. I’m happy with where I am. It’s also been a year where I’ve done random things, like read about rv insurance for the hell of it. Why? Because a friend of mine and her partner are now an RVers (Check out their adventures!)
My way of ending ‘09 was attending the retirement reception for a woman whom I absolutely adore. I was hesitant because I was there as a writer and photographer, and had just last week had a front page article printed about the same woman. I was very very surprised at all the compliments that I received. I am so proud of my accomplishments and can’t wait for the next year to continue on accomplishing more.
Anyway, I think that’s it for tonight. Got some stuff to finish for my book blog (Book Hoarding) before the year truly ends tomorrow night. See you all next year!
Hope everyone had a lovely holiday. Mine was good. We opened gifts this morning and everyone was quite pleased. We didn’t do a lot, a couple gifts each. Half we didn’t bother wrapping, but we managed to have at least one each under the tree this morning the other didn’t know about. I got a beautiful watch and two beautiful pendants.
I got Twilight Scene-It along with the 2 Twilight movie board games for Rob, so we spent much of the day playing games. I’d love to have another couple or two to play games with. It’d be so much more fun to have game nights with other people. Oh well, we have fun playing games, so it’s all good.
I’ve been reading/listening Under The Dome by Stephen King. I don’t care for Stephen King’s typical brand of horror, but this book is absolutely insane. It’s not a horror novel, it’s a work of dystopic fiction, though. I have grown quite fond of Dystopic Fiction and am REALLY enjoying this novel. It’s over 1000 pages, and I’m about halfway through it. It’s a hefty read, but well worth it.
From Goodreads:
On an entirely normal, beautiful fall day in Chester’s Mill, Maine, the town is inexplicably and suddenly sealed off from the rest of the world by an invisible force field. Planes crash into it and fall from the sky in flaming wreckage, a gardener’s hand is severed as “the dome” comes down on it, people running errands in the neighboring town are divided from their families, and cars explode on impact. No one can fathom what this barrier is, where it came from, and when — or if — it will go away.
Dale Barbara, Iraq vet and now a short-order cook, finds himself teamed with a few intrepid citizens — town newspaper owner Julia Shumway, a physician’s assistant at the hospital, a select-woman, and three brave kids. Against them stands Big Jim Rennie, a politician who will stop at nothing — even murder — to hold the reins of power, and his son, who is keeping a horrible secret in a dark pantry. But their main adversary is the Dome itself. Because time isn’t just short. It’s running out.
I’ve been sleeping normal hours lately. Sadly, tonight is destroying that. I have been going to bed anywhere around 11 to midnight and getting up around 8. It’s been nice. Tonight, though, I needed to stay up to block the door and stuff. I should be able to sleep soon. Yay. I can’t wait.
I’m going to meet up with my new pillows and rescue my old ones from the land of sleep and see if I can keep them safe for a few hours. Hope everyone had a great day, no matter what you celebrate.
We put our tree up today. It’s a 7 foot, artificial, pine. Beautiful tree. But it’s too big for our living room. Not only is it too tall. 7′ 6″ with the base and giant diameter. So, this year, we only put up the top two sections to make it smaller. It worked out absolutely beautifully. It’s just a bit taller than me. Nearly 5′ 6″ in the base. It’s pre-lit with white lights, but we added a string of flashers to it and it gave it just a bit of a pop of color. The lights are nearly 15 years old now, but they work fabulously. Sadly, it’s the ONLY freaking lights I still have. Guess what I’ll be getting in the after Christmas sales! We put up red and gold ornaments this year, with silver garland a small amount of green ornaments to break it up a bit.
After a day like today, I don’t need adipex diet pills. I forgot to eat until late this afternoon. Oops. I get too into doing everything else that I tend to forget until my stomach reminds me that it requires food. Too bad that’s not how you lose weight. I also forgot my pills this morning. Oh well.
I’m tired as all get out, so now I’m going to sleep.
I’m so freaking broke right now it’s not even funny. We had to shell out every penny of our paycheck today to fix brakes on the car. Bonus? We need more work! *sob* I can’t even afford a simple thing like one of the plasma mounts that I was looking at for the bedroom.
I’m so sick of junk cars and being broke. I used to love the holidays, now I wish for them to be over. *sigh* Maybe next year we can have a good one.
I wrote a while ago about being independently wealthy and what I’d like to do. I’ve been thinking about it on and off for some reason. I don’t know why, but I keep coming back to the same Plano dentist and contemplating doing something with my teeth. I’m still too broke, but I suppose I can dream, right?
I’m not sure why I keep coming back to it, other than feeling weird when I talk to people. But then again, there are other reasons I feel that way too. I hate pictures, I hate seeing myself through other people’s eyes. I hate who I am, and it’s not even because of my weight, it’s just because I see things that I really don’t like that I can’t ever change.
I’m not sure what’s going on with me lately, but I’m tired all the time. Though, I keep waking up far earlier than I normally do, so I guess it balances out. It’s been bloody cold lately. I’m not happy about it being so cold, especially since our furnace seems to run non-stop when it’s like this, even though we keep it set fairly low. I’m afraid if it stays this way, I’m going to have to get emergency assistance to get more heating oil. It’s kind of sad, really, since it seems like this happens every single year. It seems like the price just keeps going up, and the amount of money we have to pay for it doesn’t go up.
Blah. I feel like all I do is whine lately. Sorry.
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