*yawn* I’m tired. I woke up before 7am again. Ugh. At least I slept fairly early last night. My sleep cycle is massively fucked up right now. It’s not even funny. Oh well. At least today was pay day so I had something to look forward to. Plus I had a hair cut scheduled. It was time to chop it off. No heart attacks, I didn’t really chop it off. I had a trim of the dead and split ends and had it thinned. Two years, it was time. She took a total of 5 inches off and it’s still shoulder blade length when it’s down. Rob got his cut too, and more than made up for what I didn’t get cut off. He got his nearly shaved off. I don’t really much care for it, honestly, but if it’ll keep it short for a while, it’s good.
It was a long damn day, however, cuz we had to get his check before 11am and our appointments weren’t until 2pm. Logically it made no sense to come home in between for maybe half an hour, so we went into the city for a little bit. We pretty much wasted 3 hours doing nothing. We stopped at a new Asian place for lunch that actually has sushi. The *only* place I’ve found that has it near us. Now, I’ve *never* had sushi, so this was a new venture for me. One that I’m not sure I’ll repeat, either. The first two I tried weren’t bad. However, the other two, did not set well. I’m picky about rice, and the consistency of sushi rice is not something that works for me. But, I can say that I’ve tried it.
Now, however, I think it’s time to play a bit of pogo, then write a bit and head to bed. I’m tired. Hope everyone had a happy Friday. I did, even though it was a bit gloomy starting out.
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“The most shocking results in the history of the show”
Melinda – Safe. Whew. LOL “The school of rock called, thy want their diploma back.” Haha “You were better than Sanjaya” Blake – Safe. Yay. Favorite Ford commercial of the season. Phil – SAFE! Woo. Josh Groban singing You Raise me up.. makes me think of Kelly Clarkson looks pregnant.. is she? LaKisha – Safe. Whew. Jordin & Chris – bottom 2.. what’s shocking? Celine and Elvis.. NICE! Now that’s a duet. Goddamn… that was AMAZING! And so REAL looking! WOW! Doobie doo.. wasting 2 hours.. just get to it already. I mean, it’s a great cause, but did we need 2 hours of boring performances? Finally, results… Goodbye to NO ONE?!? WTF???? Wow, bottom 2 are leaving next week.. Votes for both weeks count. Trey weren’t kidding about a shocker!
Just a few highlights.. the show was fairly boring
Chris – Change he World – Great song choice, not quite so nasily, but not as good as he has been in the past. Melinda – There will come a day – I’ve never heard of this song.. I like her, a lot. She does amazing no matter what she sings. Blake – Imagine – Loved this performance. I prefer him over Lennon. LaKisha – I believe – She can sing, and sing well. She chose badly, no one can be Fantasia. Phil – The Change – Fantastic song choice, fantastic vocal. God that was a chilling song. Jordin – You’ll never walk alone – This was not her song, at all. I think I’d rather hear Jerry Lewis sing this.
Top 3 – Melinda, Blake and Phil Bottom 3 – Jordin, Chris, LaKisha And on to the dancing..
The group dance was just awesome. I have never laughed so hard in my life. Joss Stone and Dreamgirls cast, this will be a fun show. Joss was good. The dancers were better. Safety for.. Apolo and Laila. As expected. Dreamgirls dance was good. I can’t wait to see the movie. Jimmy Kimmel is still an idiot. More Joss Stone. Ya. Billy Ray in a dress! MG! Safety for Joey. Excellent Bottom two for John. Boo. Safety for Ian and Billy And bottom two for Heather All has gone well this week, as I was predicting. Goodbye to Heather. Damn, we didn’t see her leg fly off and hit a judge.
Joey – I have no words for him tonight other than that he’s starting to look hot again. It wasn’t bad, it was just.. odd. Heather – Not good. Not impressed. John – Not bad, not good. He was alright Laila – It was good til the end.. wtf? Billy Ray – Uh … Wow… just no words. That was.. unique Apolo – I liked this. could have found a better way than use a chair for a prop, but it was good. Ian – Too stiff, he doesn’t look like he’s having any fun.
I really didn’t care for this week. Maybe it’s cuz I was meh about the show. Not gonna bother with comments on the jive, just gonna post without it.
Okay, so I’ve not done very much in the way of writing the way I should have been. Which is alright really. I have had a lot of things going on in life that took precidence. That’s fine. So it’s time for a State of the Serena Update.
I’ve had fucked up crazy dreams before, but this one beats all of them together. I came home from a trip somewhere, must have been gone for a while cuz I had a TON of clothes to wash. I had them bagged up to take to a laundromat, along with a couple bags of things for charity. So anyway, I’m at home with my guy. He happened to be someone from my past, whom I never dated, nor barely liked even. Some random girl, no idea who she was, but it’s not unusual for me to invent people in dreams. She was supposed to be my best friend. Anyway I was doing something, and the two of them disappear from my living room. I went outside with my laundry and donations and they were in his truck making out.
So I don’t get pissed, in fact I don’t really seem to care, I just put my clothes in his truck and get in, along with another person.. my mother, whom we’re taking to her doctor. We get there and I go in with her for a few until they call her back. I go back out to get my laundry to wash cuz the laundromat is across the street and my clothes are all gone. My guy isn’t there, but my friend is. I ask her where he is and she tells me he took the clothes for donation over. I flip, cuz he took all of them, including the stuff that I had intended to wash.
So he comes back, tells me he took everything, not realizing that some was just laundry. Tells me that it’s too late, cuz they all went straight on the truck and the truck was gone. I proceed to have a slight breakdown, but not bad, just make plans to go shopping for new clothes. I go back in to check on my mother. She’s not done, so I found a seat to wait for her, totally not caring about the guy and the friend and what they were doing.
I sit there for a few minutes and all of the sudden the sprinklers come on and announcement that it was shower time. A bunch of insane people come running in with tiny bars of soap, vying for room under the sprinklers. I try to escape the room, only to find that I’ve been locked in and the nurse is telling me that I’m a patient now and can never leave.
Yeah that’s fairly out of the ballpark of dreams, so no idea what the hell that was really about. Just thought I’d share a bit of my insane mind.
It’s Tuesday night, so it’s time for Idol and Dancing so the spoilers…
Phil – Where the Blacktop Ends – Please put your hat back on. Your shiny head is too much. Great crowd interaction, great song. I rally liked him tonight. He kicked the show of well and made the song his own. I really liked this. Jordin – Broken Wings – I didn’t care for this. She was too breathy and it was kind of boring. She looked good tho. Sanjaya – Something to talk about – Bonnie Raitt is NOT country! wtf? He gets bolder every week. But he still needs to leave. I did not like him tonight at all. Like Martina said, when he projects, he does better. *snickers at Ryan and Simon fighting* LaKisha – Jesus Take The Wheel – I like this SO much better than the Carrie Underwood version. She really hits it, you can tell she feels it and relates when she sings. Towards the end, it did sound like she was shouting but she’s still good.. Chris – Mayberry – *cringe* He stumbled a bit in the beginning, when he was standing still he did better, but it wasn’t my favorite of his. Great song, but not for him. The band is too loud, so he seems like he’s shouting to be heard. Melinda – Trouble Is A Woman – This suits her a lot. It’s sassy, fun and different than you normally get from her. I’d never heard the song before, and I’m a country girl! Best of the night so far with just Blake left to sing. Blake – When The Stars Go Blue – Band is too damn loud again. He started out well, but the chorus is rough as hell for him. He was alright, but not great.
Top 2: Melinda, Phil Bottom 2: Sanjaya, Chris
Yay for a replay of the hotness that is Apolo! God they’re hot doing this dance. Apolo is just damn hot. Great jive by the group. I always love watching the pro dances. Safety for… Laila and John (?!) Wow John didn’t hit the bottom 2, I’m semi stunned! Lisa Rinna as Roxy?!?! I WANT TO SEE THAT! I didn’t know she could sing! Best Kimmel spot ever! That was an absolute riot. Macy Gray singing.. not my favorite singer Safety for … Apolo and Joey Time wasting.. time wasting… Safety for … Ian and Billy Bottom for .. Clyde and Heather I’m shocked at Billy being safe and not Heather. Those are the only 2 I question. I think Heather’s fall did it for them to be in the bottom.
Quando sono solo Sogno allorizzonte E mancan le parole Si lo so che non c? luce In una stanza quando manca il sole Se non ci sei tu con me, con me Su le finestre Mostra a tutti il mio cuore Che hai accesso Chiudi dentro me La luce Che hai incontrato per strada. Con te partiro Paesi che non ho mai Veduto e vissuto con te Adesso si li vivr? Con te partiro Su navi per mari Che io lo so No no non esistono pi? Con te io li rivivro.
Quando sei lontana Sogno allorizzonte E mancan le parole E io si lo so Che sei con me con me Tu mia luna tu sei qui con me Mio sole tu sei qui con me, Con me, con me, con me.
Con te partiro Paesi che non ho mai Veduto e vissuto con te Adesso s? li vivr? Con te partir? Su navi per mari Che io lo so No no non esistono pi? Con te io li rivivr? Con te partir? Su navi per mari Che io lo so No no non esistono pi? Con te io li rivivr? Con te partiro. Io con te.
Even though I’m no longer a participant in LJ Idol, I can write on the topics my own time. I liked this week’s topic and I put a lot of thought into it so I thought I’d share.
For a long time, I was a quiet, shy and withdrawn girl who got teased and tormented all her life. A girl who was more than happy to sit back and take whatever was dished out at her. She didn’t care about anyone or anything, she had her nose stuffed in a book or notebook all the time. Reading and writing was all that kept her sane most of the time. She put her heart and soul into her school work, did her best to make it through school even though she hated every minute of it. She wanted out of school badly, and was glad to have survived when she finally graduated. A year after graduation, I was ready to go to college. I started college a bit later, majoring in business administration because it was the right thing to do. Or at least that is what I was told. Go to school for business, or accounting, be a good little girl and become a secretary or something. That’s how it was supposed to be, at least if my parents had gotten exactly what they wanted from me. And that is what they would have gotten if I hadn’t changed.
I was not a happy college student. I enjoyed a few of my classes, but no the ones that satisfied my major. I enjoyed more than anything my English classes and my elective classes, which were centered around the computer. As a business student, they recommended the computer courses, since they would become a vital part of business. I was fine with this, since it was what I went to Vocational school for. I was more than fine with it, I was ecstatic when it was recommended. I packed as many electives in as I could to each semester.
After a couple semesters, it was clear that I was in the wrong major. I discussed things with my parents and told them, “Look, I don’t like Business. I want to get into Computer Information Systems, it’ll be better for me.” They relented and let me change majors. Yes, I was 20 years old, asking my parents permission to change majors. As long as I lived in their house, I lived by their rules. No problem. I changed majors for the following fall and was quite happy with my choices.
I still wasn’t really satisfied, but I was happy. I did quite well, bringing my gpa up to be invited into Phi Theta Kappa. I accepted, and was happy to be there. With all that, I still wasn’t happy to be going to school. It’s alright though, I kept plodding along and writing in my spare time. I took English classes as electives, those satisfied me, more than anything did. Perhaps I should have pursued it as a major, but it wasn’t acceptable to my parents. So I stuck with things that were acceptable.
Finally, after being frustrated and not being able to do as well, with 3 credits remaining, I left college. I had lost my father the day classes started. I took 2 weeks off to grieve, when I went back, I was behind. I had no way to catch up and no desire to really. So I spoke to my mother, dropped most of my courses, kept just enough to not be unenrolled, to keep my financial aide going. Took the semester mostly off, went back in the spring semester. I finished my degree business degree a year after walking in my ceremony. I had enough credits to satisfy it and I got as far away from school as possible thinking that I’d finish the Computer degree after a couple years.
After I finally was done with everything school related , I had a lot of personal things going on. My mother had taken a turn, health wise, and had a minor stroke. I was around to take care of her when she needed me. She also developed fibromyalgia, which required more care as well. It was also found at the time that I had it as well. We had both developed it after a fairly hard accident we had a year and a half before.
I also had met my husband during this time, we met online and developed a fast bond and relationship. Within a month of talking, we were talking about meeting and possible engagement. That December, he sent me a ticket to visit him for my birthday in Las Vegas where he lived. So that is what I did. I went for 2 weeks and returned 8 months later, with him in tow.
Our relationship wasn’t perfect, we split for a short time the following spring, but other than a couple months apart, we have been together since January of 2000 and I haven’t really been the same person ever since. I have taken my love of writing and made a career of it, thanks to his support and allowing me to work from home. I have been able to make use of my computer skills in ways that wouldn’t have been possible if I had gone into the corporate world. I doubt that anything would be the same if I had gone into the corporate world.
So yes, I have transformed from a quiet girl who wouldn’t speak her mind, to a woman who is confident in her abilities to put together words to draw in a reader. I have become the person that I’ve always wanted to be.
A little old lady is walking down the street, dragging two plastic garbage bags with her, one in each hand. There’s a hole in one of the bags, And every once in a while a $20 bill is flying out of it onto the pavement. Noticing this, a policeman stops her…”Ma’am, there are $20 bills Falling out of that bag…” “Damn!” says the little old lady…”I’d better go Back and see if I can still find them. Thanks for the warning!” “Well, now, not so fast,” says the cop. “How did you get all that money? Did you steal it?” “Oh, no”, says the little old lady. “You see, my back yard backs up to the parking lot of the football stadium. Each time there’s a game a lot Of fans come and pee in the bushes, right into my flower beds! So, I go and Stand behind the bushes with a big hedge clipper, and each time someone Sticks his little thingie through the bushes, I say: $20 or off it comes!” “H ey, not a bad idea!” laughs the cop. “OK, good luck! By the way, what’s in the other bag?”
“Well”, says the little old lady, “Some of them didn’t believe me”.
Well, for those of you sick of me pimping out LJ Idol voting. It’s done. I was voted out this week. I want to thank everyone who has been voting for me, I appreciate every one of the votes. I made it further than I expected to make it.
Am I sad to be out? Despite my my recent feelings regarding the strategy plays, I am very sad to be out. I’m disappointed as well. I didn’t realize there was going to be a double elimination if there was going to be a tie. Usually they have a vote off for the tied parties. It’s alright though, I’ll still be voting for my friends who are left, and anyone else who deserves it. One less thing for me to worry about every week.
Also.. popfiend, I have a proposition for you. I’ll have to email you later.
I have my new glasses now. I almost didn’t get them cuz was late getting home *grumbleglare* and it was 5 minutes ’til close when we got there. With the bell’s palsy in the fall, my other glasses no longer fit properly. The lack of muscle tone in my left cheek let them slide down far too easily, so I was always pushing them up, no matter how much they were adjusted. Plus, being gold, they were wearing and interacting badly with my skin. I had forgotten that I couldn’t wear gold jewelry and the likes. So when our tax refund came in, I went and got new glasses. It took a week for the script to come in, so I finally was able to pick them up. I’m quite happy with them. They are a deep chestnut brown color and look better on me.
I see livejournal is fixed now. Stupid thing. If people saw empty comments from me, I’m sorry.
There’s nothing like a RAGING sinus headache when you find that your last two sinus pills are gone. *grumble* Thankfully 4 aleve, a nap and ice helped. I feel better now. But I did nap through AI. *hmph* So my idol chatter post will have to come tomorrow after I watch it.
I did watch Dancing With The Stars results show. I was not surprised with the results. Shandi is fairly unknown, while the rest are fairly well known. So to see her leave, I’m not stunned. I must say, despite disliking her as a person for what she’s doing to Paul.. Heather Mills is a pretty damn good dancer. I still want to see.. .yeah I’ll stop and be nice. She doesn’t use her disability for sympathy votes, or as an excuse to not work as hard as the others. She works her ass off and makes the best of it. I’m very impressed. I still don’t want her to win. I’m rooting for Ian and Billy Ray.
I have to say, I got more (Non-Spam/Non-LJ Comment/Non message board) e-mail in the last 24 hours than I have in the last 3 months, at least. It was nice to actually have something to reply to for a change. I’m horrible at sending email, though, and I admit it. I really should work on that.
I’ve been spending a lot more time on my laptop lately, sitting in the living room, talking to Mom and watching tv with her while doing whatever. It’s been nice to get out of the bedroom and I decided today that once it starts getting warmer outside, warm enough to sit out, I’m going to be outside more. I’m definitely gardening more this year. I already have an idea of what I want to do. I have the lumber to lay out the planting bed. So we need to get past the last snow so that I can start working on it. I’m growing veggies again this year. Mom can have the flowers, I’m a black thumb when it comes to flowers. Veggies, on the other hand, I can do! Tomato, Cucumber, Zuchinni, Yellow Squash and maybe some Yellow Beans.
I’ve got so many thoughts crashing through my head lately, but I never write them down. I need to work on that some more. Bleh. I’m starting to get really disillusioned by LJ Idol drama. It’s fun to participate, but it seems like it’s now turning into a something that I’m not enjoying as much. I realize that it’s a game of strategy to a small degree, however it should not be about planning and plotting how to get out a threat using “special powers.” I am definitely glad I chose to participate and will continue to do so until it’s no longer fun to participate.
Anyway, I think that’s enough babble for the night.
she kept coming back to this place, there was nothing left there. The gates locked for years, the path grown over, but she was drawn in.
She looked at the change of the land around the castle, not recognizing anything any more, outside of the roses and their familiar blue tinge. Why were they still growing? What was feeding their growth? Was there still blood? Braena frowned, looking about for any sort of sign that there was life around.
She shook her head, turning back to the path that she had followed to get there. She left, this time with no regrets, the whispers on the wind telling her that even if there was life, she did not want to be there. She went to seek out friends, but they had long since left.
She went back into the forests, losing herself in the trees, following a path that called out to her from the soft whispering wind. She wandered for days, stopping briefly at night to rest before moving on. She wanted to get away from the castle and the memories that kept drawing her back. She wanted to get far enough away that the magic couldn’t call out to her.
And she did, she traveled for over a week, not following known paths, just following the wind until she found herself on a well traveled path with gates of fire. She stopped, knowing that there was something calling to her from within those walls of fire, but was she ready to find out what was calling.
She lifted her head to the sky, listening to the wind, listening for what she should do. She heard that call, heard that it was time to leave her life behind and start anew. And that was what she was going to do. This was the end for Braena, but just the beginning for someone new.
Bio: Some contents may not be suitable to the faint of heart, or those who can't handle people who have an opinion and their own mind. Who I am is who I've always been, an open minded, married BBW, bi-sexual who does not talk about religion or politics. I don't care who our president is, he still deserves our respect, whether we like him or not. I am blunt and honest to a fault and I'm outright offensive sometimes. If you think that you want to get to know me, read on and enjoy
Some contents may not be suitable to the faint of heart, or those who can't handle people who have an opinion and their own mind. Who I am is who I've always been, an open minded, married BBW, bi-sexual who does not talk about religion or politics. I don't care who our president is, he still deserves our respect, whether we like him or not. I am blunt and honest to a fault and I'm outright offensive sometimes. If you think that you want to get to know me, read on and enjoy.
So it’s time for a State of the Serena Update.
I liked this week’s topic and I put a lot of thought into it so I thought I’d share. 
I’m rooting for Ian and Billy Ray.
