One thing that continues to shock me, even though it shouldn’t, is that the kids that are playing sports or are in the band and choir are the children of people were pregnant during my junior and senior year of high school. For instance, one of the baseball players is the youngest son of my American History teacher. I remember when he was born, because he was brought in and shown off one day. It’s easy to forget just how much time has passed until it smacks you in the head.
I had the same experiences during football season, too. One of the players, I remember holding shortly after he was born. Now he’s all grown up, playing football and working with my husband. Another of the football players followed in his father’s footsteps and it’s so weird to see his father on the sidelines yelling and cheering for him. He never had much use for the school, but he played football and was good. Now his son is on the football and baseball team and I remember when he was born as well.
It makes me wonder about a couple other women that I went to school with who were pregnant and/or had children before we graduated. All of those children are teenagers and of the age where they will be able to drive soon. That means that I’ve been out of school for 15 years now. It doesn’t really seem like it’s been that long, but then again, I look at Rob and realize that he and I have been together for 9, going on 10 years. We’ve only been married going on 6 years, but we were together for 3 years before getting married.
I’m sure everyone wonders why I don’t have any kids of my own, but it’s a choice that I’ve made. I don’t want children and I can’t bring children into this world when I don’t know if we could support them on our own. Financially, we’re barely supporting ourselves and to add a child, we would sink quickly. Besides that fact, as much as I love children, I don’t h ave the patience to be a parent. My fuse is far too short and I don’t think I could handle it. I know my limits.
Anyway, I’ve babbled on enough about sports and people and stuff, I should get back to doing what I need to do and see if I can find any programmer jobs that I’m still qualified for and that are telecommute. I probably won’t, but we’ll see. I would like to break back into that career path again, but it’s been a long, long time and I don’t think my skills are up to snuff any more.
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