MzSerena’s Garden

Ow. My neck, my back, my wrists, my ankles. All sound like rice krispies every day when I wake up. I hate it, especially since it’s highly likely that I can develop rheumatoid arthritis. Heck, I could already have it, or worse. My mother has fibroblasts, so it’s definitely that is on my mind a lot.

My shoulder hurts like mad this morning. I dunno why. I haven’t done anything for it to be sore. It just is. I wish I could get Connie to listen to me and stop telling me to lose weight. I know I need to lose weight, but guess what? I’ve not had all these problems all my life. Sure I’ve been overweight all my life, but I used to be able to walk all over town, go to the mall and walk for hours, walk the campus at Corning. Now? If I manage to get all the grocery shopping done without crying, I’m lucky.

One day, I’ll have health insurance and a doctor that cares… I hope.

I watch HGTv at night when I can’t sleep. I love to watch them when they do kitchen makeovers. They use beautiful glass tiles for back splashes. I would love to be able to do the same thing. But, I live in a mobile home and you can’t do that. The walls are too damn flimsy.

I want heated floor tiles for the bathroom and the kitchen. Omg can you imagine? Walk through the house and your feet be toasty warm all winter. I’d love to win the lottery, buy a house that needs some TCL and do everything that I’ve always imagined.

It’s January 25th. So what? It’s 2 days away from my birthday. By the time this posts, it’ll be the 26th. One day away. I told my husband that he really didn’t need to get me anything. We don’t have the money right now. I can get what I want when the taxes come in.

Saturday we went to see my sister, delivered her birthday gifts for her. Mom got her brand new cookware. She has never had new cookware and we decided to get it for her.

After I got home, I backed everything up and started the day long process of reformatting. It took me ALL day Sunday. 2 reformats. 100 Updates. It finally got finished this morning. It’s been behaving perfectly.

I don’t have a whole lot else.

This has been a weird week. It’s been mostly dead for me. Nothing work related. I don’t mind the week being slow, since next week is my birthday, then the first week of February starts 2 weeks of busy.

I should look into an auto insurance quote so that we can consider getting a new car. I can’t do anything until income taxes roll around.

We’ve got so much going on. I need to figure out whether I’m taking on the project I want to take on. I was hoping to be able to get ahold of the person(s) in charge, before-hand and see what the time commitment would be. If it’s a regular meeting thing or just ‘hey we need to do this on this date’ kind of thing.

I’d hope for both, frankly. The former is more conducive to being able to say “okay, I need you on day XYZ.” We’ll see, I guess. I have a couple weeks yet to decide.

Tomorrow is pay day, Saturday is my sister’s birthday. Mine is Wednesday. Whee? Meh.

A quickie before I go to bed.. I didn’t realize just how many specialized job search websites there are these days. I know there is Monster Jobs and stuff like that, but I didn’t realize that there was a site specific for Philadelphia job search.

It seems logical, I suppose, but it’s weird. I figured most people who want stuff specific to their city, they’d go with the classifieds of the papper. But then again, with the number of people who apply for jobs online, it does make sense.

Oh well. Guess I’ll sleep now.

So, since I’m looking into the option of finding a new doctor, I’ve been looking into other things, ways to help myself too. I want to be a healthier, happier me in 2010.

I’ve come to the conclusion that I need to consider a mood stabilizer. I need to lose more weight, but I also need to have something done about my back. Telling me to lose more weight won’t cut it. I know I need to, but that’s NOT why my back and legs go numb.

I’ve been thinking about reading some sybervision reviews to see what is out there. I still don’t think pills are the way to go. I don’t want more things to take. I want to be a pill free, healthy me. I know that will never happen and it sucks.

Meh, I think I’ll go to bed. I’m grumpy.

Sometimes, I feel like the only thing I talk about, health-wise, is my weight. I probably do, since it’s a big part of my life. One thing that was a big part of why my husband changed doctors was the fact that his doctor wanted to put him on diet pills.

I like natural weight loss. There are too many horror stories about diet pill side effects that make me really hesitant about anyone I love taking them. I don’t want him on something that could turn out to cause other problems. I also won’t take them myself for the same reason.

I’m sure that they would help me, but I still don’t want them. I’ll lose my weight a bit at a time, the way it’s meant to be, until the time comes when I no longer see these horror stories.

Sometimes I feel like life is all work and no play lately. I seem to have a lot of downtime, but I don’t have as much as I thought. I have busy weeks, then super quiet weeks. I thought this month would be an easy month, but it hasn’t been. I have a lot of irons in the fire.

I don’t remember what I was going to say, since I started this yesterday afternoon. I still have a Saturday Side Dish to get posted too.

..and miles to go before we sleep..

I need to figure out what to do about my doctor. I need to decide whether to continue on with Candor Family Care or move on with someone else. Frankly, I’m afraid that if I go to a new doctor, I have to start all over on the whole weight issue. If I wanted someone’s opinion, I’d go to www.loseweightfast.net and read that stuff. I know I’m overweight. I’m working on it. I have other problems too, deal with those.

I need to figure out what we’re doing about a home situation as well. One that I’m not really ready to put out in public. Sorry.

I need to figure out a lot of little things, and work on a few projects. I have a few new irons in the fire and I’m excited about them, but they’re going to be a lot of work.

I feel like curling up and vegetating for a day, but that’s not an option today.

Okay, I have a newfound love for Schwan’s Fire Baked Spinach and Mushroom Pizza. I have to admit that I’ve never had portabella mushrooms on anything and these were REALLY good.  Typically, I don’t like frozen pizza, but I’ve been buying the different Schwan’s pizza’s lately.  The best part? Frozen pizza’s are really not all that filling, at least not the ones I have gotten before.  Typically for the 3 of us, we have to make 2 pizza’s.  This time, we only needed just the one.  I’m shocked that this was filling.

I’m trying hard to eat a little healthier. I need to try harder. I don’t want to take anything to lose weight. Even though green tea diet pills seem like a decent method. I don’t know though. I still have issues with the idea of taking a diet pill.

It’s so freaking cold it’s not even funny. It’s been in the teens lately. I do not like it in the slightest. I can’t wait for spring and I’ll miss winter as much as I’ll miss blackheads on nose! Typically I like the winter because I’m not sweating to death constantly.

I can’t wait for spring, seriously. Sadly, spring will bring on the onslaught of blackheads on my nose. Can’t have it all, can I? Didn’t think so.

Maybe a million years from now…

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I survived the OMGSWINEFLU crisis of the area. I survived that head cold that I started feeling.

But…

Rob gets a cold….

I don’t let him near me….

and I GET SICK. Fucker.

Please just be my allergies… PLEASE.. I feel like warmed over ass again and I have stuff to do this week.

I was hoping that 2010 would be a better year than 2009. So far, it’s starting out worse. One day I’d like to be able to post that I’m finally able to make new orleans hotel reservations so we can go on vacation. Yeah, I know, I’m dreaming again. It sucks, but life is not all that horrible. It will be better. It has to be better.

Right???

Alright, off to my books to hide from the world.

It’s finally Friday. It’s been a long week. Seriously long. Not quite sure why, outside of fighting with the cold weather. It’s been so cold that our water has been frozen on and off all week. Our kitchen was froze most of the week. It thawed yesterday, then froze up again today.

It’s been so cold that I can’t feel my feet when I go somewhere. I don’t own boots, I only have sneakers. I should invest in new shoes this spring, too. I was looking at those new mbt shoes. They’re kind of odd. I’m not sure I could walk wearing them. The rounded bottom with balance issues would probably be bad.

I really should break down and buy boots. I just hate the expense of something I might wear 3-4 times a year. Meh, maybe it’ll warm up next week. I hope at least.

I’m so freaking sleepy right now, and have the song “Goodnight, Sweetheart” Stuck in my head. I blame it on the show I was watching. Oh well, it’s a good song.

I’ve been randomly surfing, rather than doing anything I should do. Outside of starting my first book for my daunting task of beating multiple challenges. My first choice? Emily Bronte’s Wuthering Heights. I’ve never read it before, so don’t laugh.

I kind of screwed up and totally forgot about the deadline for the paper being Friday. Oops. I should do that as soon as I’m done. Thankfully, I’ve already taken the photos off the micro sd card and have them on my computer. I just have no idea what to write.

I’ve got a few things in my head, but deadline was 2 days ago and I need to get to it. Hope 2010 is treating you right.