MzSerena’s Garden

Well, I finally spent money on myself. I bought a new pair of glasses, and they’re PINK. Seriously, how awesome is that? I’m glad. I don’t *need* them, really. I just have been having issues with mine not fitting right since they accidentally got bent a little. I’m happy. They’re good glasses, so I’m not complaining.

I’m tired, my brain hurts. I updated my book blog earlier. I need to run maint. on this one and a few others.

I’m just glad I can go to bed soon. Some days, I feel like I’m sitting here watching security cameras that are monitoring my life. It’s weird. I feel like everything is going on around me and I’m sitting dead still.

Tomorrow, I may get to meet a friend for the first time. *bounce* I’m excited about the prospect. I’ll also get to take Hubby to Corning for the first time. I haven’t been there since I graduated college. Once I finish this post, I need to figure out where to meet up with my friend, so I have an idea of where I need to find. Things have changed since I was last there.

So, I shall wrap up and get other stuff done.

What a week! Ugh. I seriously need a new mattress. This one has gone to hell. I hope we can get out tomorrow before Rob has to work so we can do a few things. I’m just kinda feeling overwhelmed. I do know that when I get a new mattress, I also want to get one of those allergy mattress covers so that I can sleep better.

Our laptop felt the pain of being hurt. Somehow, the pin in the jack to charge it got broke. Took it in to see how much to fix it. $175. Ouch. So, I had to sit down and soul search and figure out if I wanted to fix it. We’d been talking about getting a new one, so I priced and talked and priced and talked. In the end, I decided to buy a new one. I settled on a Compaq – Presario Laptop with Intel® Celeron® Processor – Black. I just hope they have one on Sunday when I go shopping.

I’m stressing about the car. Kind of wish we could get it fixed tomorrow, but I doubt that can happen. We’ll see. I’m going to be going to Corning on Sunday, hopefully. We’ll see what the weather brings, though, since we’re finally getting snow.

For now, I leave you with my favorite commercial from the Olympics.

I need to draw some new readership, I think. I really have no idea how, outside of submitting to a free web directory and that doesn’t really work all that well. It’s hard. Everyone wants to succeed, but not everyone can. I’m not sure what to do.

I know long posts don’t get read, so I write shorter posts. I don’t post more than a couple times a day at most. I dunno what to do. I .. meh .. just don’t know. I’ll work on it over the weekend, I think. Maybe come up with a strategy.

I’m cranky as hell. I itch like a mofo. My back is broke out. My face is, however, acnefree. At least you can’t see my breakout? I just wish I didn’t itch so freaking much.

I’m tired of feeling all “Argh” lately. It sucks. I suck. I was even snarky in emails with someone tonight that I’m normally not sharp with. It wasn’t directed at her, it was about a rival, so to speak.

Blah. I’m not really feelin’ this post. At all. I should end it now and move on. Or go scratch myself to death.

I’m fixated on the doctor’s appointment and the lack of interest in me she has actually taken. I’m still fed up, angry and frustrated. The worse part, I got my bill today. Last time I went was around $83. This time was over $111!

She didn’t do shit! She didn’t even try to tell me what the best weight loss pills would be! She’s USELESS! And yet, she wants me to pay $111. To hell with that.

I’m going to protest that bill and then, I’m done. Period.

Sleep is for the weak, they say. I disagree. Sleep is for those who haven’t found out how to sleep properly. That would be me. I never went to bed until after 3 this morning, then laid in bed for nearly an hour before finally falling asleep. I had asked my doctor over a year ago if she would recommend some OTC sleeping pills or even prescribe something. Her choice was to prescribe an anti-histamine for my allergies in hopes that it would help me sleep. Failure.

I’m tired of not sleeping normal hours. I was doing good for a while there, going to bed at 11 or 12, getting up at 8 or 9. I want that back, but I don’t know how to get back there. Plus, I can almost guarantee that if I did get back there, Rob’s work shift would get switched up again so that I have to be up at 2:30am.

Meh.

So, my bestie is pregnant. I said that elsewhere, it seems familiar. She’s having her second child and this time we’re actually speaking to each other. So, I get to hear all about pregnancy vitamins and eating for two and the size of the baby compared to different fruit.

Now, I’m 34 years old and frankly, don’t much care. I’ve never had a child, don’t plan on having one either. I know that sounds odd, but I don’t have the patience for raising a child. I don’t know why. I love children and always wanted my own, but over the years, that changed. I’m glad I didn’t start when I was 18 like most people.

Meh, I’m in a weird headspace.

Everyone knows that you’re going to pick up germs from everything in the world. One thing that a lot of people think about is what you’re putting your head on at night when you go to bed. I never really gave it a whole lot of thought either, but I did when I started developing allergies out of the blue. What got me to thinking about it is having had the opportunity to sleep on a bed with healthy dreams germ fighter pillows on it. I woke up able to breath well, not congested at all and I knew the environment was the same as home, just the bedding was different.

I asked why they chose this kind of a pillow and was really surprised to hear about how bad your bedding choices can be for you. I never gave much thought to the dust mites and germs that your pillows can hold, especially the older the pillows are. When you think about it, a pillow starts breaking down the first time you use it and when you breath, you’re breathing out whatever germs are in your system. You don’t change your pillows when you’re sick, right? You change the bedding and wash it, but what about the actual pillow or mattress?

I know that, personally, my allergies are absolutely horrible. I got new pillows for Christmas and I was better for a few days, then they kicked in even harder. I suffer daily. I don’t like it, but it’s what I have to do because I haven’t had the ability to change them all out at once. I need to do that soon, then hopefully I’ll be able to sleep better at night and wake up better in the morning.

If you don’t believe me about your pillows making you sick, check out the video below and you’ll be a believer too. I know it opened my eyes even more.

Happy Valentine’s Day, readers. Personally, I dislike this day. I don’t see the need for a day to show someone how we feel about them, we should be doing it throughout the year. You never know just how much time you have with someone, so tell your loved ones how you feel.

Rather than spending money on flowers, chocolate, etc, why not think spring and buy patio furniture instead? I know that sounds weird, but give me a second to explain. When you spend money on flowers, they die within a week at most. Chocolate only lasts as long as it takes to eat it. A fancy dinner lasts one night, so why not spend the money on something that you will both enjoy on down the road?

The other thing I dislike about Valentine’s day is this – it’s great if you’re in love or in a relationship with someone, but what about everyone else? Is it fair to them? Not really.

Think about it.

I went to the doctor on Tuesday. I’m not all that impressed with her, or her office in general any more. She spent less than 5 minutes with me. Just long enough to complain about my weight. Yeah, it creeped up a couple pounds in 6 months. So what? Isn’t it your place to figure out why? The only other thing she had to say is that I need blood drawn in July. Wtf? A year?

At least she’s not like Rob’s former doctor, trying to push diet pills. I’ve done the research on side effects of diet pills and I know what isn’t safe. I would take them if they were safe. I would take any option that people think would work, if it was safe. But it’s not safe. Not in *my* eyes, at least.

Is it really work if you truly love your job? I think that I’m a rare exception to the norm when it comes to having a job. I have one of the best jobs in the world and it doesn’t really seem like work.

I don’t think that I’d want to change anything about my job, especially since I set my own schedules, work when I’m available. I get asked to do a lot of features, which still surprises me every time.

I seriously love my job.

So much for the plans I had for our income tax refund. I think my car is plotting against me. I was hoping to be able to get a few things that I have been waiting to buy.

There goes my Nintendo Wii or iPod Touch. I’m sad and irritated.

Tonight, on the way home, the windshield wipers decided to take a dive again. I’m seriously NOT pleased. The damn thing was just fixed at the beginning of January.

Wtf, car? I don’t get it.

[12:58] Name Removed: but as an american…i hate this country
[12:59] Me: So leave.
[12:59] Me: Canada is nice, they say.
[12:59] Name Removed: yeah you know what give me the money to move an i will
[13:00] Name Removed: which includes getting me a new job a place to live and the right to live in a country other than this one
[13:02] Name Removed: now beyound that …. i will continue to bitch about america if i want… cause im a legal resident born here i didn’t ask to be here so its my god given right to bitch…
[13:03] Me: And it’s my god given right to tell you to stfu and do something about it if you hate it so much.

I don’t get it, really. I don’t care for the government, don’t agree with the politic, but I wouldn’t really want to live anywhere else but here.